Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Goodbye sweet Sultan

I got home last night and he wasn't doing well.  I got in touch with the vet that helped me with Bug, and they fit me in.  Sultan was very cold and not responding much, but they wanted to try to get his temperature up before making any decisions.

The vet called about 7pm and said that he had perked up some and suggested I take him home and give him a chance.  He didn't eat at all over night and I was up at 6am this morning just holding him.  I left the other kittens in the bathroom and just sat with him in the dark living room and told him it was ok for him to go.  It was strange....all the adults took a spot around the living room and it was so quiet.  Sultan would cry once in a while, but I mostly sat there and listed to him breathe.

The vet office opened at 7:30am.  I called and they said come right over.  The tech got him on a hot blanket surrounded by water bottles and it still took 10 minutes before his temperature even registered on their thermometer.

Roads are terrible here this am as we got an ice storm but the vet made it in and we talked about the options.  I had called the rescue last night and she said she trusted my judgment.  I just felt like it was time to let him go...I didn't want to keep fighting when it felt like the wrong thing to do.  Dr. Hoffman agreed and said she suspects it may just be something congenital and no matter how hard we fight, the end result may be the same. 

So this morning at 8:30am, I let Sultan cross the Bridge.  I know I did the right thing, but it still breaks my heart. 

The tech said as I was leaving that she hopes I don't stop doing the good work I am doing.  I won't, even when it gets hard.  I haven't gone into work yet, and as I sit here at home typing this, Phoenix is sitting between my wrists purring so loudly.... So no matter the heartbreak, there are still lives to be saved.  So I keep it up - in the memory of those that died in shelter with no names, those that are abused but saved by rescues, for those rescues that operate on a shoestring but never give up....and for the small purring fuzzy kitten that still needs my love no matter how bad I feel right now.

30 comments:

  1. I'm so sorry, Jeanne. I know that you really tried to help Sultan. It is frustrating that the vets don't always have a better answer or solution. But at least Sultan was loved and cared for in his short life.

    Cynthia

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  2. I am so deeply sorry. I'm sending universal Light for comfort and my fur babies are sending their soft purrs.

    -Kim

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  3. You were there for Sultan and while difficult, you were kind and let him go peacefully and without suffering. It is hard...

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  4. I am so deeply sorry to hear about sweet Sultan. I send you lots of purrs, hugs and love. I know how tough it is.

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  5. How sad.
    Godspeed to sweet Sultan and we send lots of purrs for you.
    Love,
    KC & Fambly

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  6. We are new to your blog, so don't know Sultan, but he was a beautiful boy and we are sorry for his loss.

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  7. We are new to your blog, so don't know Sultan or his story, but he was a beautiful boy and we are very sorry for his loss.

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  8. we are so very sorry about Sultan. He was a beautiful boy and we know it was hard to let him go. we are sending lots of purrrss and {{HUGS}} to you.

    Sultan, we knows that someday we will meet you at the Bridge..

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  9. I am so sorry to hear of Sultan's loss. So hard when the loss of a love one is so fresh.

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  10. Oh wow! Our mom is getting all teary just reading this. We're so sorry to hear about Sultan. You did your best for him. We send you comforting purrs and headbutts.

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  11. We are so very sorry to read about Sultan.
    Our Mom knows how hard it is to let a foster go. You said it well...There are many more needed care and love.
    Thank you for helping.
    ~ The Bunch and Mom Bobbie

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  12. there are times that no matter what we do we cannot save them.RIP Sultan.

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  13. I am so sorry to hear about the loss of little Sultan. It does not make it any easier but you did say it best ...

    "So I keep it up - in the memory of those that died in shelter with no names, those that are abused but saved by rescues, for those rescues that operate on a shoestring but never give up..."

    You are so right but it doesn't mean that a heart doesn't ache and a tear isn't shed.
    We will purr strongly and light a candle this evening in Sultan's memory.

    purrin
    xoxox

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  14. We're so sorry about Sultan. It doesn't matter how young or old, or how long or short a time you have known them, it is so hard to say good-bye. Soft purrs and tail wags.

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  15. We are sorry to hear about Sultan. It is good to know that he had your love and caring at the end. We send many purrs

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  16. We are very sorry to hear about Sultan. We send you our condolences.

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  17. Oh no poor Sultan!!!! We are so sad to hear this news.

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  18. We are so sorry that Sultan had to part from you and us so soon. Purrliss stay strong for the many other kitties out there who need you.

    Purringly,
    Slash & Bronzy

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  19. We haven't read all of sultans story, but we are sorry he has crossed the bridge. Purrs to you.

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  20. We are so sorry for the loss of Sultan, and bless you for helping the kitties. Big purrs ...

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  21. We are very sorry that Sultan had to go to the rainbow bridge. But we are thankful Sultan had someone who loved him to help him get there.

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  22. Rest, Sweet Sultan, and then run free and explore the wonders of the Other Side of the Bridge where you will be healthy and safe and loved forever.

    You gave this beautiful deserving creature a chance to know security, dignity and love during his short lifetime. He did not die alone and unnoticed under some porch or in the woods. You made a difference...and continue to do so with every kitty who passes through your life into a forever home. You are an Angel for doing what you do despite the heartache.

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  23. Poor little Sultan. But, better in your loving hands than alone in the street. You do a great job.

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  24. so sad! We are very sorry Sultan had to go to the Bridge. Bless you for caring for him and loving him. Purrs from all of us,

    Pip, Smidgen, Minnie, and Hollie

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  25. We are so sad to read this! Our deep purrs and hugs to you at this difficult time. We hope you carry on as it is an amazing thing you do.

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  26. We are so sorry to hear about Sultan!! You are all in our prayers during this sad time!!
    Your TX furiends,

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  27. So sorry to hear this! Our Mama is crying for you and Sultan. You gave him a wonderful life while he was with you and now while he is at the Rainbow Bridge he will have somebody to be waiting for! ::hugs::

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  28. I am so sorry for your loss. If I were there, I'd give you a hug. I always say it doesn't matter if we have them 2 minutes or 2 years, when we lose one, it's heart wrenching.

    Thank you for all you did for Sultan and all you do for the other kitties.

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  29. Losing kitty friends is never easy. It sounds like you did your best to care for and love Sultan. I am sure he will be forever missed, may his presence and his gift to you live on forever in your heart. One day, may there be reunion with all those we have loved and lost.

    I echo the words of many others in your comments, thanks for caring for all the kitties as you do. Two of my cats came to me from a local rescue group the other two I rescued myself. Every kitty deserves a warm safe home.

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  30. Hello! I'm very sorry me and my cat Charlie are very late commenting here about dear sweet Sultan. We are so so sorry to hear about Sultan. This picture of him wrapped up is just so heartbreaking. Take care please.
    x

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